Something You Should Know

 


Is my mind often ponders when I sleep.

I reflect on the things I have done that day,

my future, and my past.

I imagine myself and the things I wish to do and become

and how I have grown from the past.

Which leaves me nervous for what is to come,

not knowing what my future entails

or what mistakes I have made in the past.

Perhaps I should’ve done this and not that

or maybe I shouldn’t have done this and did that?

Perhaps I should stop analyzing too much

And accept that I will continue to shape my life.

Yet, it is scary to jump into the unknown abyss, that is the future.

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